Ironic

 As you already know from the title. I've been self-employed since 1999.  I started out as a contracting stripper in the night clubs. It's not a proud past. But it's my past nonetheless.  A couple of the girls I worked with would 'school me' on how to save money, what to do with this lifestyle, and what not to do. I learned so much in the first few years. In fact, the picture you see to the right here is me modeling for some extra money during that time.  It was an all clothes-on gig and I was excited about it. On this day, I was in a park in Indianapolis, IN. I didn't feel very pretty either. I had a lot of self-esteem issues at the time.  Funny how I'm all scarred up now and I feel more comfortable than ever before in my skin!   I liked modeling; only to a degree.  It was something my momma saw me doing from the time I was a toddler. In fact, I was in pageants as a little girl.  Mom would make me some beautiful dresses and hope that I would...

The videos I did about my solar panels and the invertor as well as the control panel for my solar panels are all found in this post. Also, after posting I learned they sold out of one of the products. So, I've done some research and found the products that save you money and are quality.  We can keep this blog post simple today. If you've followed me for a while you'd know that there's nothing simple about me. So that's kind of an oxymoron! Right? Everyone likes a little controversy. I think it's a part of the flesh. Well, my flesh that is. And there is nothing more controversial than posting a winter pic in the middle of the hottest month in Texas! I'd like to keep that flow of 'you never know what Carmen's going to do next' up here...  No one likes people's boring opinions. Most people get paid to keep them to themselves. I try my best to make sure you hear mine.  😂 My flesh suit has been HOT HOT HOT this summer. Just looking at this winte...

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For a girl who's made a ruckus across the internet you'd think I'd be somebody by now, right?  Wrong!  The self-affirmation gurus are probably clutching their pearls and shaking their heads at my audacity. "This isn't how it's done!" they'd say.  They might be right. But I've always been one to challenge the narrative. For over 22 years, I've traveled the world - from the vibrant streets of Jamaica to countless cities across America - and I've noticed a universal truth; we all crave love . My blog, once ironically titled "Carmen's Loved," reflects my own quest for love. Initially I believed that money and success equaled love, a misguided notion that stemmed from a childhood filled with emotional and physical abuse. I was determined to prove my worth. To show the world (and my mother) that I was lovable. My early 20s and 30s were filled with financial success. Money, I thought, was the answer to my longing for love. But it was...